27 11 06


i thought today is suppose to be a great day for me .
nvm ,
i'll just summarise it again .
woke up ard 11 plus ,
by *'s call ,
lol .
then online ,
py say meet at orchad ,
latest is 5 .
so mrt-ed thr .
reached orchard mrt .
this stupid purple guy came to me .
forcing me to donate $$ -.-
asshole .
i couldnt find my cousin liao
& still ask me donate $$ .
wahahas .
but he's quite cute luh .
thn i lost -.-
couldnt find py at all .
then call the whose hp .
haha .
forget his name .
lol .
only knw he likes my cousin.
wahahas .
he dont look nice =x
lol.
then found the guy .
he was just standing beside me -.-
wahahas .
how hilarious ?!
then cousin lost -.-
went to find her .
thn saw dora mummy !
wahahs .
hugged her (x
imissher so so so much luh !
then my stupid cousin ,
so bloody buey paiseh !
go tell my dora mommy
saying that she's my cousin !
like who dont knw ?!
wahahs .
then found her luh .
ahha .
shopped & slacked .
went to far east plaza .
shopped .
then dont knw whad happen .
met siewling & siewzhen at cineleisure .
then shopped .
* called ,
then * said he's coming .
i was over joyed ohkays !
but i acted as if im not.
wahahas .
thn py went to find the guys to take baq her pooh bear .
thn i went to find the girls (x
thn py asked us go there .
bcos * is here .
wdh luh .
he's the king meh ?!
hahas .
lol .
thn went to cheers .
py bought the thing for smokers to bcome high ?
i dont knw .
haha .
thn i bought one drink for myself & 1 for her (x
thn went out .
saw *
hais .
looked into his bloody eyes .
he attracted me )x
hais .
but he's no longer mine .
thn we all went up to 4th floor .
arcade .
thn they jio girls .
ask for their no. -.-
lol .
* asked too ?
i dont knw .
but was sad luh .
hais .
thn mark & nana precious called me (x
cheered me up man .
wahahs .
i wasnt feeling well ,
my legs were numb man .
fook it luh !
haha .
lol .
thn slacked & mrt-ed home .
many things luh.
but jus im not in the mood of blogging .
board the train.
thn saw * running dwn the stairs .
he stood outside the door of the mrt train .
its too late .
the door has closed .
damn it .
fook it man !
hais .
at that moment i really wanted to cry .
suddenly i feel like telling him how much i love him still .
then i cried all out .
mark & nana precious panicked i guess .
haha .
they were shock luh .
wahahas .
thn i just hang up the call
i dont wanto let ppl hear me cry .
then * call me .
asking whr am i ,
i wished i could tell him that im just beside him .
but i wasnt
whad to do ?
i cant do anything .
ohdear !
nana was great !
she sent me a msg .
'mei , don't sad luh. he will realise how much you loveee him someday (:'
i was so touched to receive that msg frm nana .
though we are no longer in e same sch ,
she still loves me loh (x
i love her too (x
wahahas .
hmmm .
thn nana called (x
i cried & told her lotsa stuff ,
i told her how mucch i loveee *
& how much i have to tell *
hais .
i really wanto tell * how much i love him .
but i dont have the chance to .
hais .
always i have to hide it frm others .
whn they say biaojie you like * right .
&& i fooking have to say NO !
its a lie ohkay !
i still do love him ALOAD !
thn i cried in public luh .
everyone was looking loh !
i was wishing if i didnt board the train ,
& i could see his face again .
hais .
& the worse part was ,
he called & say
'its v late alrdy , somemore you alone . must becareful ohkay . ohkay bye .'
fook it man !
hais .
he sounded as if he has not much time left .
lol !
dont wanto talk then say dont wanto talk luh !
at least mark was kind enuff to say send me home !
unlike him* !
argh !
mark was kind luh .
but fooker one luh .
haha .
he ask me go pp meet him
& he'll send me home -.-
by the time ,
i might as well dont go home right ?
wahahs .
thn was crying all along luh .
thn nana was
'dont cry leh . i hear you cry i also wanto cry le sia '
haha .
thn i stopped .
haha .
thn i keep on looking at the escalator sia .
i keep on hoping tht i will see * rushing dwn to find me (x
but all was jus a stupid thinking .
i dont understand why i let so many trains pass by me ,
just bcos to see him
when i knw i cant ?!
how foolish am i man .
thanks nana (x
you really have been my GREAT LISTENING EARS (x
iloveyou so so so muchhhh xD

thn nana really pey me till i reach home sia .
even though she has netball tml .
she's really a GREAT FRIEND (x
i thank god for blessing such friends (x
its really a GIFT frm heaven loh !
wahahas.

thn went online .
saw * online also .
hais .
as usual .
didnt talk )x
i seriously appreciate my frens !
i really thank god for them you see .
pp like FARHAN mate , CHERYL DARL , MARSHALL DARL , EUGENE BOYFRIEN , GEKHEE bro , NICK DEAR & AHHWEE destiny .
they are the pp who were by my side whn im down man (x
really grateful (x
cheryl darling was cursing *
haha .
she keep telling me its not worth it to cry over him .
& stuffs .
but whad she expect me to do ?
i really love him now .
i dont knw why .
hais .
destiny is mend to be UNFAIR !
hmmm .
mayb me & * are just not fated to get tgt (x
& i dont blame .
its ohkay.
at least he love me bfore .
im content with that alrdy .
at least i was his once .
hmmm .
thn ahhwee heard im crying thn he immediately online sia.
so good right ?
always there for me.
wahahs .
i seriously appreciate ahhwee , nick & nana the most (x
my longest friends you see .
but farhan & cheryl are my PRECIOUS peeps(x
wahahas .
thn nick dear was great !
he pey me sia .
wahahs .
he was cheering me up man.
& we were talking abt the past man
haha .
yep .
last time we used to call each other dear
but now we cant call in front of her .
haha .
sensitive luh (x
haha .
thn kenny also keep pestering me -.-
keep asking me for patch .
i only love * now ohkays !
but thanks for the msg anyway (x
'alone ? i'll be your shadow.
afraid ? stay behind me .
wanna cry ? here's my shoulder
need a hug ? i'd hold you tite & say
: whadtever happends ,
you'll always have me .
need a ear ? i lend you luh .
pey me talk pls ? )= '

haha .
thou he's irritating ,
but he's somehow abit cute uh ?
haha
lol !
dont get the fooking wrong idea uh !
haha .
hmmm .
thn farhan was like ,
'cheeyen , dont cry hor !'
you will meet the right guy at the right time ,
* is not the one
haha .
oops =]]x
& he send me lotsa poems .
so touching .
but i promised him not to tell anyone .
so i cant =x
sorry (x
but he sent me dhis super cute msg '
'oh and for the last time ,
btw im msging you in my dreams yeah..
here the bills so bloody ex !
so this sms is special cus its ex ,
& also cos you are my mum..
haha .
dont spend too much time dwelling in the past .
look towards the future & make the best out of it ..
lol . kk gtg now .
need to meet my fans !
haha i singing autographs (wad u expect ? im dreaming !!)
kk must pay my money back for this sms in the real life kkaes ? bb ! '
haha .
im really so touched to receive tht msg frm farhan luh
he's the bestest guy i ever seen you knw ?!
he is very patient de luh !
haha .
he'll NEVER GET ANGRY luh !
haha .
i so love him luh .
though i knw him not v long ago ,
he still lend me his ears
& cheered me up luh
though he's nvr been in love bfore ,
he still stand by me
& for me ,
im so so so touch cann ?!
wahahs .
iloveyou farhan !
& yes ,
moutains are hard to climb
but once we manage to climb up ,
the senery is super nice (x

thn eugene boyfriend was great too (x
he says im not allow to cry without his permission .
haha .
&&&& he ask * to die ? =x
haha .
i feel bf frm bfore alrdy dont like * ler
bcos last time we conference mah (x
hmmm .
thn gekhee was msging me .
; 'cheeyen whad you dong ?
how are you ?
ohkay ?'
&& stuff like that sia .
haha .
so caring uh ?!
lovelovelove <3
i really so treasure all of them sia .
esp NICK dear & ahhwee for ytd (x
ahhwee cheered me up the most .
saying stuffs luh .
haha .
yes ,
& i promised ahhwee i will try to not shed a tear for * anymore (x
thn nick was the best ,
he pey me chat until 4+ 5am sia ..
haha .
i cant slp .
hais .
once close my eyes i would think of him*.
hais .
but whad to do ?
since he dont love me at all .
why shld i suffer ?
& why am i crying over him for nth ?!
he likes other girls .
whad cann i do ?
shudd my bloody mouth only right ?
nvm ,
at least i have friends to treasure !
though it wasnt a great day ,
i still thank god for today .
bcos he made me knw how much my frends care abt me (x
im so so so grateful & sad .
haha .
im touched too (x

ahhwee dropped me this testee (x
'cheeyen !
im also grateful to have a fren like u who always luff n luff..
yea.. we started talking only when the chalet.. i have no regrets going to the chalet becos i have no regrets noeing u..i noe i cant ask for more becos u're my most.i din tell u any secrets becos i dont have any xD
i told u.. im always there =)
whether rain or shine, its the same becos my computer is indoor xD
im also grateful n will treasure our frenship.. im proud to be ur destiny xD
u can choose ur own future n im just there to help =)
ty for letting me be ur listening ears
tc my course of evens
love.love.love

ahhwee'


look ,
pp care so much abt me .
why shld i be sad just over * ?

& farhan told me ,
the person who cann stop me frm crying is the one who made me cry .
but farhan ,
me & * arent in talking terms anymore you knw ?
me & him arent like the past .
we no longer talk on the fone nor sms .
i dont knw whads happening .
but someone told me he likes another girl .
& of course ,
im not so bhb to keep pestering him .
& i step out .


& ilove NICK DEAR (x
we were talking abt our past times luh .
yes .
time fly luh .
memories are the best .
but we cant turn baq time .
imissthose days too (x
its okay luh .
haha .
at least we are still in touch now right (x
haha .
nvm .
now i have ahhwee mah
haha .
my bestest partner (x


& ppl .
now i only trust ahhwee the most (x
i mean among my bedok frens ,
& ilovehim (x
haha .
he's my destiny man !

and i couldnt slp at all luh !
im gonna meet nana now !
gdbye (x
im gonna cry out all when i see her (x